I can remember clearly the moment when everything changed. I was sitting in the sunlight that was shining through my back patio doors, working on the computer. My daughter was a preschool and my little guy was sound asleep. I was distracted and having a hard time focusing. I had the most exciting news to share with my husband, you see, I knew I was pregnant and the test that morning confirmed that I was right. I was deep in thoughts of revealing to him that our prayers had been answered when I remember hearing the garage open. I heard his footsteps as he came into our home. In the middle of the day. This was a very rare occurrence. He works long and hard and rarely takes any extra time off. So, I was instantly wary. He turned my chair around and the words he spoke, crumbled my world, in one sentence.
When Bruce and I moved to Utah, we had all these great plans, goals to work towards and a clear idea of where life was going to go, but we forgot one thing. We are not in charge. Life does not always go according to plan and in this case…nothing went as planned. Over the next two years, our lives would be completely uprooted and we would experience a trial that we would never have dreamed possible. There would be many small everyday trials that we would learn how to navigate while trying to fight our way free of the trial that started it all. We would be stretched thin, our shoulders would carry weight we never knew we could endure, and we would both come to understand what it means to lose one’s self.
Both of us would also grow and change in ways that only this personal and difficult trial could bring about. Together we would experience it all. The big, the bad, and the ugly. I am choosing to share this darkness, this trial with you, in hopes that it will help you in your own trials, but I also want to share the bounty and that is what this blog will be about. The light in the darkness. The fact that while this one sentence, “the doctors think I have thyroid cancer and I need to have some biopsies done,” changed everything, it would not conquer us. We would and did rise above it.
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